A Silent Mold

Well hello...It has been a long while since I have written and posted on here. I couldn't believe it has been since late March, just 2 weeks in the shelter in place. So much has happened, and changed but not really.

I recently decided to write on here again after my sister told me I haven't written a blog post since March! I couldn't help but think of the coincidence and relevance of how this relates to what I came up with for writing on this Fig Tree blog today. I have been reveling and enjoying reading a book about silence, and titled 'The Power of Silence' by Robert Cardinal Sarah.

There have been so many beautiful, meaningful, and powerful points the author makes about silence, and how it truly reveals God's ways, design and love. God works the best in silence and most of the time we don't hear his voice since he speaks ever so softly in our hearts, and in our souls where he reigns.

I love delving into the Cardinal's points of this deep mystery of solitude and silence. And as I read through to come to know and understand how much our world and even ourselves at times dislikes and repulses the 'sound' of silence. I am also coming to understand the difference between absence of noise or sound and the meaning of solitude. Not to just quiet the noise and busyness around us, but also our minds, interior thoughts, our hearts. Cardinal Sarah declares, "The silence of our heart is the most mysterious thing...We have less control over our heart.' And 'Silence of the heart is silence of the passions."

And interestingly enough, this blog, this Fig Tree hasn't produced any fruit these past few months, however, I believe it has produced fruits of silence, and solitude.

I feel there is a parallel between what the world is experiencing and how we are dealing with a less fast paced, intensity of pursuit of entertainment and extra clutter of noise and stimulation outside of ourselves and rather the transforming beauty and power of silence. "Our world no longer hears God because it is constantly speaking, mat a devastating volume, in order to say nothing" (The Power of Silence).

Cardinal Sarah reveals, "In silence, not in the turmoil and noise, God enters into the innermost depths of our being." He says,"Silence is not an absence. On the contrary, it is the manifestation of a presence, the most intense of all presences." And he further states, "The real questions of life are posed in silence. Our blood flows through our veins without making any noise, and we can hear our heartbeats only in silence."

Though silence as I am learning from experiencing reading this book is a wonderful, necessary and beautiful thing it isn't always easy to attain, and manifest in our lives. There have been plenty of days and moments when I was craving extra stimulation, some noise and activities to attend to. These times we are in are just so different and obscure that even little things can make a difference if they are present or if they are lacking.

But what I have learned is that constantly and frequently searching for and pursuing things outside of ourselves can be a danger. I find there to be a balance and a happy medium with this since I'm the kind of introvert who thrives off inspiration, projects, ideas and goals to help me stay afloat in the creative and free spirit department. However, Cardinal Sarah states, "Man likes to travel, create, make great discoveries. But he remains outside of himself, far from God who is silently in his soul."

There's a peace that comes with sitting still and letting God in with the silence, solitude and serenity that our minds, hearts and souls crave, seek and find joy with. He adds further, "Silence is friendship and love, interior harmony and peace. Silence and peace have one and the same heartbeat...Man can find rest only in silence. The most beautiful things in life take place in silence."

I think silence not only brings about virtues such as  peace and joy but also humility. It's easy to get caught up in words, feelings and passions but when we listen or are silent, there's a calmness, a sense of humility that can come through. There have been encounters with priests who I can tell are holy, humble, prayerful and spiritual fathers. Either I have witnessed them praying devoutly and quietly or just by their actions, demeanor, choice of words or none they have shown something deep, and something greater that continues to be in all of us, and for us to strive towards. "God hears nothing else but this silent, humble, meek love" (The Power of Silence).

I'm trying to listen to my own heart and how God speaks, in ways I don't always know, imagine or hear at times. I can't always see it now, but there are still many blessings, graces and gifts that God is continually giving throughout this time. It can be easy to be envious of past days or years when things seemed 'easier', more pleasant, interesting or better.

But the challenge is for me to embrace this time with hopes, trust, courage, joy and even silence to allow God to reign, speak and lead where I feel like I have given up, became discouraged or got lost along the way. To end with this quote from Cardinal Sarah from the book The Power of Silence, "The more man advances in the mystery of God, the more he loses speech."

Slowing Down with God

I had a flashback from a year ago at this time. It all became clear and somewhat relevant to this time now. It's another Lent and this Lenten season has its own feel and memories to it. I can say it wont be the same with not being able to have Palm Sunday with palms and prepare for Holy Week, attend a Good Friday service or celebrate the feast of Easter. It's our own type of cross and sacrifice that we haven't seen or experienced before. This time of year with the upcoming feast of Easter is the most important events in our faith. God has different plans for us this year than we could have anticipated and just like there were twists and turns throughout Jesus' ministry and leading up to his sacrifice on the Cross, so too we find it ourselves in our own lives, and I find it mine as well.

Last March, I wrote about boredom and relating it with keeping up with the demands and daily grind of my new job. It wasn't what I hoped or anticipated for, as last Lent was crushing for me in the sense of daily sacrifices, misunderstandings and humiliations that were small or large.

When I look back, I can see all the good that came out of it and all the growth. My spiritual life was forging new waters and perspective but it wasn't a walk in the park any day of the week. With this 'boredom' that I wrote about and trying to get through the days by striving to learn whilst still staying engaged and inspired, I find it almost amusing that these days there are many people who are bored due to our current situation. They are bored with how our lives have shifted so much where we can't really be with people the same, let alone go places where we want to go due to this virus.

The strong and vivid memories that I have from a year ago come from the church I would go to for daily Mass each morning before work. There were the daily mass goers in their exact pews they would prefer to sit in. I would be aiming to get there on time although it wasn't always an easy endeavor with getting up earlier and preparing for the long day ahead.

With this pandemic that we are going through, this same church that I make a visit in is quite a contrast from last year. It is dark, and empty,with no candles lit or lights on but over the tabernacle. It is silent and calm with the Lenten tableau on the altar which symbolizes the emptying of ourselves. The contrast of last years Lent and this years is interesting to reflect upon. The church is the same place but I feel different. The memories of Masses being held and all the prayers said are held in my thoughts as I encounter this new situation in all of our lives.

I feel grateful to be able to spend more time in silent prayer this Lent, and it's what I truly desired last year but was always rushing off to a work place that was debilitating me emotionally and psychologically. It was so hard to leave after Mass and after a few prayers, now there's no rushing to do or places to go or even a work place to attend to. I feel God wants us all to slow down, reflect and draw closer to Him and His sufferings during this time. And it has been really nice to do so and use this opportunity in a positive and a spiritually enhancing way.

God wants us to trust in the journey amidst the trials, and to rely more on Him and His strength. Last year during this time, I felt so alone in my thoughts and in my experience; It was difficult to always express them in words. From Ash Wednesday last year I wrote down a reflection in regards to the start of Lent.

"Let all that you do be solely for the pure glory of God. If you were alone you might be afraid, but God's grace is in you, and with you and words in you...Don't be afraid of trials. Throw yourself full force into the loving arms of Jesus and with him you'll be able to take giant steps along the way of perfection."

Hebrew Lesson

A Thorn, A Rose

I had a lovely run but mostly walk  a few days ago. It really felt like the first day of spring and it got me excited since I've been craving warmer weather, sandal wearing, lighter clothing for some time. This relaxing walk also was one of the best in over a week with other things taking over my time to do so. I could finally process, enjoy, make time for inspiration. While walking I noticed how some of the most beautiful flowers and one of my favorites will not be in bloom for some time due to pruning. It is necessary for this to happen so the roses can grow and bloom better when the right time allows. This immediately made me think about life, and particularly what I'm going through, how there is the right time to bloom, grow, and develop, but sometimes before the results showcase themselves, there is a waiting season, an unknown period, and or suffering.

I couldn't help but relate this to Jesus's sufferings on the cross as well. He had a crown of thorns placed on his head, that pierced his head, but also his heart. One of my favorite images and prayers is to the Sacred Heart of Jesus, and this image displays his heart burning like a furnace with a crown of thorns around it. The 3rd sorrowful mystery The Crown of Thorns has its own virtues that are linked with it. I think of humility, as this severe suffering of Jesus was related to mockery and scorn of being King. But there is also hope, because with suffering comes its own beauty, revelations, virtue and intimacy with Jesus's as well as his divine plan for our lives. Just like calm after a storm, a rose blooms and grows with its thorns.

I can easily recall the last few years and their own set of thorns, sufferings, and new challenges to keep hope, faith, as well as inspiration to lighten my mood, my heart, and see the silver lining. 2 years ago, I was beginning the journey of taking classes and starting a new path. It was exciting and interesting but also had its share of uncertainties, waiting, and trust. Or when there was so much interior gusto to graduate college and begin post grad, having a peaceful waiting period was hard.

There is so much encouragement, and spiritual inspiration in scripture which is ultimately what helps me to endure trials, or seasons of unknowns and waiting. I love Jeremiah 29:11, Psalm 119 came to me the other day and spoke to my heart, and another one that came to me is 2 Corinthians:
'Therefore, so that I would not become arrogant, a thorn in the flesh was given to me, a messenger of Satan to trouble me- so that I would not become arrogant. I asked the Lord three times about this, that it would depart from me. But he said to me, 'My grace is enough for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness' So then, I will boast most gladly about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may reside in me.' 

Surrendering to the King

Today is an important feast. It marks the end of the liturgical year but most especially the feast day of Christ the King, King of the Universe. There is a lot to grapple with this feast day, this time of year and preparation for the next upcoming feast day and celebrations to come. It's a favorite time of year for me with a lot going on, look forward to, internalize and pray about.

The song that stood out to me as a form of prayer this morning at Mass was a beautiful reminder of this feast and our faith. 'Sweet Redeemer, I surrender all I am to you.' The priest who said the Mass recalled how the cantor singing made him want to sing even more and louder, and I agree with this song declaring love, faith, and total surrender.

Yesterday, I wrote in my journal of the memory of about a year ago. It was the birth of my sweet nephew, but also the birth of what felt like internal pain, suffering and emotional distress at times. Going through the details in my head, the emotions and thoughts from last year brought me right back into the moment. I could recall fairly vividly the deepness and heaviness, and just how difficult it was to express in words to others. I remember going to a park and being by myself after a busy Thanksgiving and just needing to reveal in my thoughts, emotions and be in the present. It was a rainy day and happened to be Black Friday. The rain softened my mood and allowed me to refresh and have God console my own misunderstandings. I began to relax, process and enjoy the wet leaves and the fresh Fall air.

Yesterday, I went back to the same park for a change of scenery and pace. I needed to relax, get some outdoor time in and exercise. I was brought back to that Black Friday and which literally felt like a black friday to me. I was grateful to experience it but no longer have to. Finding inspiration was a struggle last time but the air, the beautiful trees and red and orange leaves, the sunlight were so lovely, inviting to look at and be with. I felt present and thankful.

To start soon this new liturgical year and close this one, I feel it's important to look back on this year. To not only be grateful for it but to see the blessings from our generous God and look for ways to improve, enhance in our spiritual life, and in other ways. This week of break will give me a good opportunity to take time for prayer and reflection, thanksgiving and surrender.

At the end of my journal entry, I wrote 'I'm glad I'm in a different place, and can reflect upon it, and hold it close in memory and let God take care of the rest.' I see the start of this new liturgical year a way to place everything in God's hands, the past, present and future.

I will close with a quote reflection from Pope Pius XI who named this feast during his Papacy.
"He is King of Hearts, by reason of his charity which exceeds all knowledge, and by his mercy and kindness which draw all men to him, for never has it been known, nor will it ever be, that man be loved so much and so universally as Jesus Christ." (Pope Pius XI, Magnificat)

God Provides

God provides. This was the message my favorite priest gave on Monday. The Gospel was at the heart relating to faith and God doing what he does best, provide. Jesus says to Peter pertaining to the temple tax, "But that we may not offend them, go to the sea, drop in a hook, and take the first fish that comes up. Open its mouth and you will find a coin worth twice the temple tax. Give that to them for me and for you." (Matthew 17:22-27).

Upon reflection, there were certain things that came to my mind regarding God's plan and purpose in His divine provision. This past Sunday, my sister, her friend and I had the honor of bringing up the gifts at Mass. I carried the wine and I couldn't help but think of the significance of it all. Wine is a symbol for many things when it comes to Jesus' sacred blood, but I also remembering hearing that wine is God's gift of joy, plenty and generosity. Wine is a good thing and it's not just a necessity like water but an abundance more. That's how God provides, more than we can imagine and at times we can't know or imagine either.

I watched the movie Mary of Nazareth with my sister last week, and we were both impressed with how the film depicted and portrayed Mary's life and her role. The scenes displayed well her deep surrender, trust, and love for God and humility to do His will. It also highlighted her 7 sorrows and her many crosses of misunderstandings, loneliness, and uncertainty when it came to Jesus' ministry and after Joseph passed away. God provided for Mary and her trust, faith, and hope in His plan and timing was an added response to that. God provided for us in giving us Mary as the new Eve throughout her life and especially through Jesus' sufferings on the cross, when he stated to John, 'Behold, your Mother.' This wasn't said just to John but meant for all of us, all of humanity. This is relevant since tomorrow is the feast of Mary's Assumption.

Yesterday, my dear sister and brother-in-law celebrated their 3rd Wedding Anniversary. It was so special to be a witness to their wedding ceremony and reception in El Salvador, and to watch their love story unfold in God's beautiful timing. To see God provide for my sister and their marriage is a powerful, hopeful and joyful thing to witness.

The coin in the fish's mouth is an odd, and even funny thing. God has a sense of humor and a way of providing that usually exceeds our expectations and predictions since life isn't predictable. And that's important to note, we aren't in control, God is. And He has a specific plan and will provide in His own unique, awesome, and beautiful way.

Greetings of Peace

This first week of Easter is very special and profound. Our hearts are rejoicing in Jesus our Savior for conquering death and rising from the dead and granting our salvation.  Peter and John were the two disciples who ran to see that the tomb was empty and 'Mary Magdalene was met by two angels about where Jesus' body now lay. Jesus is near her but she believes him to be the gardener as he asks her why she is weeping, and who she is looking for? When he says her name, Mary, she then sees and believes it is Jesus by calling him teacher.' (John 20:11-18). The disciples were walking on the road called Emmaus where they were talking and discussing the things that had happened. And there Jesus meets them though they do not recognize it is him. 'They felt their hearts burning within them while he spoke to them and opened the scriptures to them.' (Luke 24: 13-35).

These readings from the Gospels this week show the mysterious, divine and loving way in which Jesus shows himself. He is different perhaps he looks different or their hearts weren't open to seeing the risen Christ. But it shows that He is with us and meets us on our way, and where we are at. "We are consoled by the fact that Jesus sees us, knows, and loves us, even when we are not thinking of him, or are troubled and discouraged. Finally, Christ command to 'stop holding on' is because he desires still greater intimacy with us than as one who stands external to us. He wants us to "receive the gift of the Holy Spirit' who will transform us into other Christs" (Magnificat).

After watching the movie Risen last week on Good Friday, I came to know and understand more of the disciples longing for Christ and revealing himself to them. This reflection from the Magnificat reminded me of what the disciples were experiencing as well as any one of us in our spiritual journey. "God's preference for hiding does not match our expectation of intimacy with him..Indeed God may seem painfully unknown when he is sought most intensely. It can be as though we induce him to hide when we desire him most. We know him sometimes only as he leaves behind sharp hungers in our soul..After every instance of showing himself, our Lord disappears again from sight, a further provocation to spiritual hunger.. Perhaps the saints became holy because they never made peace with the impossibility of seeing God in this life. Among the poor, or in the midst of hostile or indifferent souls, they went in search of his face, only to return again to the silence of prayer where God once more hid himself. These souls lived as though always on the verge of finding a treasure."

What comes to my mind this first week of Easter is that God is always with us in our trials, our sufferings, our despair, our fears as well as our joys, hopes, and desires. Just as Jesus gave his peace to his disciples, he says and does the same for us. Just how his disciples recognized him in the breaking of the bread, we meet him in our daily encounters, in the ordinary, and in our true food and drink, for he is the bread of life. I can find Jesus in my daily journey, to work and taking the same road that once lead me to my former job that I often think about. The road was outstretched and I felt prepared and inspired to teach my students. The road now is short and I pass a nice park and a field of lovely spring flowers, and I often think of that long stretched road from months ago, but know that God was with me then as well as now.

My favorite priest left for Israel this past week and I received the shirt I created having to do with Israel. It is inspired from this blog- Say Hello to the Fig Tree. I imagined it in my mind for quite sometime and enjoy creating something that is personal and meaningful, an original creative work. I wear this shirt now with an image and flag of Israel, and an image of Nathaniel under the fig tree approached and greeted by Jesus telling him to follow him, along with the words 'say hello'. The fig tree symbolizes fruit and hopefully fruit that will last and not be like the barren fig tree. The fig tree is also a symbol of Israel and God's covenant. I would love someday to visit this spiritually enriching and historical place. I continue to reflect upon the liturgical season we are in, and may the risen Christ continue giving us the graces of peace and joy, alleluia!

Confessing Our Brokenness

Self-righteousness...we can all have it and it can come out at various times. Many people think that Catholics are self-righteous or Christians of various nominations, those who keep and practice their faith and take it seriously perhaps are labeled as self-righteous to others from an array of backgrounds. And this can be true to an extent but it also depends on where someone is coming from. We all have pride in our lives and in our hearts and it can take away our joy because in the end God should be our pride and joy not necessarily ourselves and our achievements.

Today's Gospel reading is from John Chapter 8  verse 1-11 about the woman caught in the act of committing adultery. She is scoffed at and pointed at for sinning and threatened to be stoned. But Jesus jumps over the law so to speak and instead of focusing on the woman's sin, he asks the Pharisees if any one of them is clean and free from sin, to be the first to throw a stone at her. And they all eventually go away from her as they can admit they also have their own dealings and attachments to sin. Jesus then says to her, "Woman, where are they? Has no one condemned you?..Neither do I condemn you. Go and from now on do not sin and more."

How easy it is for us to focus on other's shortcomings and downfalls instead of our own. We hide our weaknesses and sin to others and instead show our achievements and successes. When we are like the Pharisees in the Gospel, we act like we are better than others and our pride and self-righteousness gets the better of us. God is without sin and yet he doesn't condemn us like we can sometimes do to others, instead he invites us to be free from sin and turn again to him. This happens when we go to the Sacrament of Confession. We come fact to face with God through the priest and give him our sins, our failings, our shortcomings. I was able to go to Confession yesterday after wanting to go for sometime during this Lenten season. Like most people, it can be scary, intimating or a little nerve wracking before going but I have asked the saints and my guardian angel, and the Holy Spirit to be with me and guide me. Yesterday was Bl. Pier Giorgio Frassati's birthday and I was thinking and praying to him for certain intentions, as he is a wonderful example and intercessor.

Before waiting in the confession line, I read over a beautiful prayer that never gets old or boring and I feel it is especially relevant while waiting to receive the Sacrament of Confession. I will share part of it here.

"Nothing in your life is unimportant to me. I have followed you through the years, and I have always loved you- even in your wanderings. I know everyone of your problems. I know your needs and your worries. And yes, I know all your sins. But I tell you again that love you-not for what you have or haven't done- I love you for you, for the beauty and dignity my Father gave you by creating you in His own image. It is a dignity you have often forgotten, a beauty you have tarnished by sin. But I love you as you are, and I have shed My Blood to win you back. If you only ask Me with faith, My grace will touch all that needs changing in your life; and I will give you the strength to free yourself from sin and all its destructive power."

After receiving the graces of the Sacrament of Confession, I feel light. My inner being feels as light as a feather and full of peace, being lifted in God's loving mercy and grace. The beauty of Confession is acknowledging and confronting our weaknesses and sins in a humble way. God designed it this way for us to know that we need him and he meets us in our humility and desire for peace and forgiveness. I will end with a quote from Venerable Fulton J Sheen's book, Peace of Soul. "Everyone in the world is looking for certitude, peace of soul, and freedom of spirit. Everyone wants the things that only a love of God will bring to him. Anyone who turns his face toward the light will be converted; but the turning must be done of his own free will."

Peace of Soul

The Fruit of the Heart

"...For every tree is known by its own fruit. For people do not pick figs from thorn bushes, nor do they gather grapes from brambles. A good person out of the store of goodness in his heart produces good, but an evil person out of a store of evil produces evil; for from the fullness of the heart the mouth speaks." (Gospel of Luke) This excerpt comes from today's Gospel, and the message is so important, powerful and relevant to the readings and message of today. The fig tree is mentioned a lot in the Gospels as it's a reflection of many things. In today's Gospel reading, it signifies the goodness of one's heart and intentions and what kind of fruit they bear. As is mentioned in Galatians 5, "The fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control."

On Friday's (3/1/19) first reading from the book of Sirach, it mentions friendship and finding true friends by testing them first. "...Keep away from your enemies; be on your guard with your friends. A faithful friend is a sturdy shelter; he who finds one finds a treasure. A faithful friend is beyond price, no sum can balance his worth. A faithful friend is a life-saving remedy, such as he who fears God finds; for he who fears God behaves accordingly, and his friend will be like himself."

This resonated with me since it can be too easy to trust someone without first fully knowing or testing them. It is also very true that a faithful friend is a treasure and beyond price. In the book of Sirach it also states, "Let your acquaintances be many, but one in a thousand your confidant." Just last Sunday, there was a Parish Priest who passed away suddenly and it was all very shocking and sad. Thinking about this priest and what I saw of him made me think and reaffirm that he was fairly closed and didn't reveal very much about himself. I and I'm sure others may question why since it seemed that the community didn't get to know him very well and perhaps vice versa.

I myself find that I can be closed at times and not open. Sometimes it's due to the fact of my personality, my comfort zone or just not wanting to reveal things which depending on my audience, a person may not relate with or understand. I do think it is often wise to be this way as the book of Sirach states. However, I also find it's just as important to become the friend in yourself that you want to attract. Jesus knows our hearts and he is the most intimate, compassionate and forgiving friend of all. When I get down that I don't have real friends to confide in this uplifts and reassures me and gives me great confidence in God. In today's first reading from the Book of Sirach, it's the 'true colors' so to say or the exposing of the heart and mind of a person that is tested. "...The fruit of a tree shows the care it has had; so too does one's speech disclose the bent of one's mind. Praise no one before he speaks, for it is then that people are tested." 

I have fallen in love with Venerable Fulton J. Sheen's writings and teachings. Currently, I am reading his most stimulating spiritual book, Peace of Soul. While reading the Magnificat reflection from Friday, I was pleasantly surprised that it was from Venerable Fulton J. Sheen. It was a beautiful, and rich meditation about the gift of an unhardened heart and I want to share some of it here. "Once you realize that God is your end...you begin to see that friendship, the joys of marriage, the thrill of possession, the sunset and the evening star, masterpieces of art and music, the gold and silver of earth, the industries and the comforts of life, are all gifts of God... He intended them to be bridges to cross over to him... Begin with your own emptiness and seek him who can fill it... Look at your heart! It tells the story of why you were made. It is not perfect in shape and contour, like a Valentine heart. There seems to be a small piece missing out of the side of every human heart. That may be to symbolize a piece that was torn out of the Heart of Christ which embraced all humanity on the cross. I think the real meaning is that when God made your human heart, he fond it so good and lovable that he kept a small sample of it in heaven. He sent the rest of it into this world to enjoy his gifts, and to use them as stepping stones back to him."

I will close with a reflection from Saint Bede: "The treasure of the heart is the same as the root of the tree. He who has in his heart the treasure of patience and perfect love, brings forth the best fruits, loving his enemy, and doing the other things which have been taught above. But he who keeps a bad treasure in his heart does the contrary to this." One of the devil's most damaging lies- it seems to be so close to the truth - is that only by first bearing good fruit can we then become good trees: We imagine that our own good works and merits must precede, or cause, God's love. How, then, do we acquire this treasure of patience and perfect love? How do we become good trees? By rooting ourselves in Jesus; by turning to him incessantly, filling our hearts with him."

Blood, Love, Trust

This past Sunday was the Wedding Feast at Cana. I think it can be easily overlooked and seen as nice. But it's more than nice or something to be thought of and then forgotten. I was moved with the excerpt from the Magnificat reflection about the feast. Jesus said, "When I know that it is the fitting time for me to suffer, when my suffering will be profitable, then I will willingly suffer..." This has to do with his passion, and knowing when this would come about. "Because, having it in his power when to die, he did not yet see it fit to use that power...He had come, then, having it in his power when to die. And surely it would not have been right were he to die before he had chosen disciples...The hour then had not yet come, the fit time was not yet."

God's plans are not our plans. God's ways are not our ways. There is a perfect timing for everything, and I think as we go and journey through life we continue learning this wise and true statement. On the Sunday for the Wedding Feast at Cana, my sister and I decided to go to the Church where we were confirmed. I hadn't been to that Church in a while, but it was nice to see and be part of another parish. The priest in his homily mentioned coming to Jesus and trusting in Him relating to the Gospel of John 2:1-11. There was a problem, the fact that there was no more wine for the wedding guests. Mary intercedes and tells her son, and Jesus acts and makes all anew.

This was his first miracle and made his disciples to believe in him. This all tells the way in which God works, at the right time and through mysterious ways. There wasn't enough wine and Jesus made it in abundance, plentiful and filling to the brim. His grace, love and mercy is in abundance. At first, there needed to be jars filled with water. God's grace and mercy fills us in this way too, to quench our dryness, our doubts, troubles, sins. This water would be turned into wine, the good wine that Jesus gives us every time we go to Mass, his blood, his sacrifice,his mercy and deep and true love for us.

Having to do with sacrifice, this past Monday, January 21st was the feast day of St. Agnes. Her story proves one of love for Christ, her faith, purity and innocence. In a similar way, it matches St. Maria Goretti, my confirmation saint. Hers also reflects purity, innocence and a hate of sin but a strong love for God and conversion for her murderer.

On Tuesday, was the remembrance of the court case of Roe v. Wade and the Day of Prayer for the Legal Protection of Unborn Children. Human life is sacred, beautiful, valuable and our country is still fighting the horror, evil and violations against life, woman and families on abortion. I still continue to pray for the end to abortion, those affected by it, and the conversion of abortionists and pro-choicers'. Prayer is powerful, as well as being a witness. I hope to continue being a witness and praying in front of a abortion clinic this year.

Jesus has given his life for us. His love has been shown bountifully and trusting in His timing, and will isn't always easy or certain, yet necessary if we ever want to live a life filled with faith, joy and trust. This week relates to the bloodshed with St. Agnes, as well as the millions of innocent children being killed and life and the safe space in their mother's womb to be erupted and taken from. Agnes trusted in God even until death just like Jesus upon the cross. And we are trusting in God's plan, and mercy for the unborn stripped of their natural right to life and dignity.

As the beautiful and well known Divine Mercy image from St. Maria Faustina depicts the Jesus's love and mercy says, 'Jesus, I trust in you.'