The song that stood out to me as a form of prayer this morning at Mass was a beautiful reminder of this feast and our faith. 'Sweet Redeemer, I surrender all I am to you.' The priest who said the Mass recalled how the cantor singing made him want to sing even more and louder, and I agree with this song declaring love, faith, and total surrender.
Yesterday, I wrote in my journal of the memory of about a year ago. It was the birth of my sweet nephew, but also the birth of what felt like internal pain, suffering and emotional distress at times. Going through the details in my head, the emotions and thoughts from last year brought me right back into the moment. I could recall fairly vividly the deepness and heaviness, and just how difficult it was to express in words to others. I remember going to a park and being by myself after a busy Thanksgiving and just needing to reveal in my thoughts, emotions and be in the present. It was a rainy day and happened to be Black Friday. The rain softened my mood and allowed me to refresh and have God console my own misunderstandings. I began to relax, process and enjoy the wet leaves and the fresh Fall air.
Yesterday, I went back to the same park for a change of scenery and pace. I needed to relax, get some outdoor time in and exercise. I was brought back to that Black Friday and which literally felt like a black friday to me. I was grateful to experience it but no longer have to. Finding inspiration was a struggle last time but the air, the beautiful trees and red and orange leaves, the sunlight were so lovely, inviting to look at and be with. I felt present and thankful.
To start soon this new liturgical year and close this one, I feel it's important to look back on this year. To not only be grateful for it but to see the blessings from our generous God and look for ways to improve, enhance in our spiritual life, and in other ways. This week of break will give me a good opportunity to take time for prayer and reflection, thanksgiving and surrender.
At the end of my journal entry, I wrote 'I'm glad I'm in a different place, and can reflect upon it, and hold it close in memory and let God take care of the rest.' I see the start of this new liturgical year a way to place everything in God's hands, the past, present and future.
I will close with a quote reflection from Pope Pius XI who named this feast during his Papacy.
"He is King of Hearts, by reason of his charity which exceeds all knowledge, and by his mercy and kindness which draw all men to him, for never has it been known, nor will it ever be, that man be loved so much and so universally as Jesus Christ." (Pope Pius XI, Magnificat)
I enjoyed reading this post sis, and the pictures. I find it is always interesting to return to places that recall the past in a vivid way. I think it builds reflection and gratitude - qualities that are such important parts of living! I love what you wrote -- seeing the new liturgical year as a way to place everything in God's hands. Love you sis!
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